**Happy Trip 2011**

The final countdown for my BKK trip had finally came. Very much looking forward for this trip for the longest time I than ever. Wanting to get out of SG the soonest I can to freed myself from any unhappy memories and stressful life. I oways wish that once I get out and I dun have to come back!!!

Little Friend is really funny... Luggage is also so "little". Handle can oli open halfway. Haha...


First day arrival, went to pai pai. The weather is so hot... Shop from one place to another under the fiery hot sun. I feel so nian nian....

Pics taken at the Platinum mall.

Pics taken at Amari Watergate while waiting for Little frd to wash and scrub away the yuckki chewing chum on his slippers... Yee... An Zhang.... :P

Pics taken on the way from Asia Hotel after buying from Naraya and dinner at Thai restaurant next to it.

Having our last shot at the hotel before we check out... Sob sob... We are going back to SG.

I hate U, little Friend!!! Always mimicking me.....

Taking SQ back to SG. Feeling so heavy again.... Happy times always so short. I am glad that I have fun and loving friends with me in this trip. This is one of the most Happy and wonderful trip that I have ever been.

**Over & Done Wiz**

No blogging for myself for a long long time....

Been wanting to blog but seems very busy and nothing much happy things worth my effort to jot down over the last 1 years.

Unhappy things seems to be one after one since end 2009 when the hurt pierced right thru my heart and leaving behind a deep scar. Changing an environment in 2010, hoping things get better for me. I tot it was but I was wrong again... Things I do and react seems to have a CCTV on me. I felt so uneasy. I was misunderstood and I explained but I din get their understandings. I was hurt and I teared. I am tired and gave up on it. Maybe without me around, it would better for everyone and myself. It hurts to see them again and I have masked myself every time I see them. I have to behave nothing happened and be careful of every actions I make. No matter wat I do seems to be an opportunity for them to create a topic of the day. I feel so jaded. Do watever you want to do to harm whoever you wan with your imaginative thinking and powerful mouth.

I shall stay away and ---------------- drawn.

Tonight is the most stressful night that I have ever had in life so far. Things are not really good on my side and evil jerks are out there taking their opportunity to dampen the bridge that I have been building. I am kinda of sick and tired of such times when it doesn't take a month or so to build ya.... The place given was so horrendous to build such bridge when the fundamental is not the concrete ground but soft soil and sea. Disasters are on going stuff which prevent me from building. Furthermore existing material are not solid quality and have to to source for better materials to bridge the gap. Dun I wan it to build it? Dun I wan it to be asap? I am battling on the ground everyday like a madwoman but things aren't flowing my way.

I have done it and gone through it. Why do you have to push me to such corner which I can't even breathe everyday? Do you have to put me up and ruin me down like this? Do I have to do things that are against my conscious so that I will be part of your allied? I can't bring myself to do that as I believe in Karma. I do believe your Karma will come one day.....

**Review of 0.5 of 2009**

Entering into the 2nd half of 2009.

Q2/2009 was a fantastic quarter for as I have found my way to success. I feel real good about it. This month seems slow for me but I believe I can do it again. Haha... saying is easier than doing. I m also not sure if I really can. All I can do it to continue my activities and make sure I close it.

Goals seem near yet so far. Not sure if I can achieve in time. Haiz...

Well, all it takes is hard work and confident. I guess I am still trying to achieve 100%.

Just went to 2 wedding dinners. Times passed real fast. Met up wiz old pals... Everyone's doing good. Happy for them.

Hmm... Haven not taken any leave since beginning till. So many places in mind that I wan to go but like no time to take. Turn me off if I take leave and my target are still running as usual.

How I wish I can go travelling to genting to win a fortunate.. keke then up to bkk to shop till i drop, follow by taiwan to eat till i shiok and then to London to buy my favorite.... Wah sound so nice horr.... hmmm when cani start to do that leh???

**Fried Rice**

Still on MC. Mood is like roller coaster! Suckz big time. Seems like the invisible rock is getting bigger and heavier. Really feel devastated. I have done it before but now seem like not getting smoother for me. What has happen to me now???!!! Seems like I have "ben kui". Even my body start to give me problems.

Called fried rice today. Feel much better after toking to fried rice. You are good! Thank for your "jin yu liang yan". If you are not firmed enuff, think you would have been brainwashed by me. Really admired your spirit and determination. Now I noe what make you up there.

Yes! I need to get a grip of myself and find back the Confi of me. If this continues, sooner I will resort to leaving which is something that I do not wish to admit defeated. No WAY!

But then back to reality, things are easier to be said than done. What shld I start to do leh? What did I do last time tat made me up there? Did I say something right that time and not right thing this time?

I always believe that no matter how times are tough, I still want to make it happen.

**1 after another**

Beginning of 2009 seem to be a bad start for me.

1) Never hit my target

2) Granddad say bye-bye

3) Pro-rate still never hit

4) Had eye infection for 3 weeks and still not recovering fully yet!!!

See, first is my right eye got infected. It is so red and swollen.

Next, it spread to my left eye and started tearing blood. Horrendous!!!

Went to see 5 doctors, finally the last doctor whom I consulted managed to give me eye drops that stop the redness and swellings. He said that this is Conjunctivitis (commonly called "pink eye" or "Madras eye") is an inflammation of the conjunctiva (the outermost layer of the eye and the inner surface of the eyelids), most commonly due to an allergic reaction or infection.

Redness, irritation and watering of the eyes are symptoms common to all forms of conjunctivitis.
Acute allergic conjunctivitis is typically itchy, sometimes distressingly so, and often involves some lid swelling.

I hope this would be the last for 2009.... Hopefully the ups will be on its way.

**Harris Resort & Loong's Wedding**

Just came back from Batam 2D1N. Quite a short holiday. But it's a good place to slack which I have been longing for after 1 year of stressful workload and infinite targets.

There is nothing much to look forward at the resort except the spa. Thumbs up!!! Everything over at the resort was about the same pricing in Singapore hotel - A can of Coke = S$4.50. *faints* Food over there is suckz! Dinner @ poolside with live band who are not very pro in their singing. I noe I noe they are trying their best. Plus my gastric is giving me a hard time throughout the night. Even on my way back to Singapore, I still feel uncomfortable.

Recently, I was pretty occupied by lots of things in mind. I underwent a lot of medical tests juz to confirm I m not getting wat I think is the worst. But a week of fever cause me to go for this operation as soon as poosible. I have been thinking all this while. Live the life to the fullest. Seems like I have been working all day and night for this job without realising that I have lost alot of my spare time on enjoying what life is. Coz after work, I m dead beat.

Certainly, I have to move on with life and taking it positively. Looking back all these years, things I went through and pple I have known, be it successful or not, be it sincere and truthful or not, hoping things would happen to me as I would expect but it seems not. I tend to ask further why, how come and if I have not come across this, would it be better for me? But I learnt to ask myself 'Wat Can I do better?' Times have proven me that I need not have to be persistent in certain matters as it doesn't need to say it out. I learnt and understood that y pple react this way and I have let it gone. You noe wat I mean. This is the duno wat time of wedding dinner I have attended this year. Seems like every month there is one. Real broke though.

PFS Nov Zoukettes 2008

I would say this PFS Zoukettes is one of the best Town hall I ever had. Besides a lot of liquor, much fun was enjoyed. Guess next year will be more budget. All thanks to US.

So happy to see my 'xiao shuai ge'. Managed to take a pic wiz him.

Went hopping around in Zouk. Saw 'my love' doing his favourite hobby = Lim Jiu

Most of us were super high, having fun and busy taking pictures. Haiz, Cherish the moments while we can coz dun even noe when the white letter is coming if this credit crunch continue to be so cruel to us.

VCY Phuket trip 2008

Went to Phuket in end of oct for 3D2N. Though it's short trip, I have experienced till the max.We booked a villa in phuket which is up on a hill and faraway from the sea. It's a big and beautiful villa so far I have seen. You can even see the swimming pool through the bedrooms.
On the second day, we went island hopping. The scenaries are beautiful. Everyone is eager to snorkel and I did the most foolish thing that I thought it will never happen to me. After wearing my life vest and totally forgot that there is still a waist pouch on my waist. So eager to jump into the sea to snorkel and that's it. Jump with my waist pouch and happy trying to snorkel. Came out from the sea. My precious hp and camera went snorkelling too and they drowned within mins. Cant work anymore. Damn it! Got to buy these gadgets in S'pore.

Riding a motorbike is thrilling. This is cool but not easy.Duno when we can have another trip like this. Times are tougher now and we still have to work even harder.

**Hard to get**

This is crazy... Guess I am a pc idiot! Been figuring out for many days before I finally get the ipod onto my blog ... the correct position I wan - I mean... Market is so rocky and it's really hard to get my activities going. Suckz it big time!!! Me wiz the Ucrown after many days of cold-calling nites. Feel so giddy. Luckily, our neighbour next to us lend us this head massager. Otherwise, I will faint soon. Not too bad. "Look good right??!!!"
Market has been very cruel to me when I needed my activities the most. Now I am hanging in the mid air. Gotta to make sure I get it before all turn into sunk cost. Can't stand hypo ard me when I am not getting my activities and they are juz like pain in an ass sticking on you wiz lots of stupid qns everyday when they are in their activites. Oh pls, give me some luck. I need more activities to keep my activities going.

**Money Not Enuff 2**

Recently went to watch this show... Not too bad. True facts of Singaporeans' life that pple are struggling through each and every single day. Wat the diff between pink and blue card. They are = 1st class citizen. No much special priviledges are given to pink carder.

Suppose to be a comedy show, end up tearing in cinema, flashing back on the vivid memories that I had.

When 'mother' appeared in the scene... my eyes became watery. Grandma, I miss you. She looks so much like my grandma, such as expressions, dressing and even the behaviour. So cute and easy going. Anything for her sons and daughter-in-laws and yet some sons and daughter-in-laws dun give a damn of her. ( If you're reading this and feel a sense of guilty, u noe wat I mean!!! So time to wake up and treat the other partner of hers better before he is gone wiz the wind) Whenever I ask grandma to help me she will ask say "hor" = ok! but now no more. Forever gone my wonderful grandma though it's been a year. The scene 'mother' died in the hospital was so real and similar like my grandma. Her sudden death really leave such a devastating memory for me.

*****

Though I have gotten wat I have. Certain areas in my life still not having a smooth path. Wonder why pple can do it and how they make it. I tried ways and means to do but result was futile. Sometimes, I really wish there will be someone who will teach me the way it should be done and not letting me knocking against my head repeatedly. So tired but I still have to fight on. Dream I still haven achieved and I noe I need to keep on biting on it and get it.

**VCY KL Trip**

So tired! Life at this stage is so boring for me. Other than work, is still work . Erm... one more thing. Hate to go to work nowadays. No longer having that warmth and belonging feeling. Suckz!

Went to KL for a short getaway from a long fighting battle for what I want to get and I got it. Thanks Boss... I am not gg to write down any unhappy encounters that I came across in this trip coz I dun wish to jot this down in my memories. Just keep it sweet. CAn't stand freeloader!! Never in my life I have become a "robert tao" for someone! Geez.........

This ramli burger was sold next to the coronade hotel. Look tasty, taste yummies!

Have breakfast the next day at one of the coffeeshop. KL is full of white noodle. Not very fantastic. Only the last meal that we had in KL was the best. That's Bah Kut Teh!!! Everyone was very much satisfied before we set off home.

Passed by KL and we decided to drop by Malacca. Snap the red house which I always seen in pics. Beautiful.

Then we went to the shopping malls in Malacca. Guess wat?? Boss was so obsessed by F.O.S.

In KL, already shopped the F.O.S. Came to malacca, dun even wan to "fang guo" F.O.S. Really a die hard fan of F.O.S. Pei fu, Pei Fu... Everyone's legs seemed to have dumbbells on it. So long as there are benches or chairs, we will just sit and wait for boss to wrap up his shopping craze in F.O.S. Finally, done for that. Morale of the story, juz shop F.O.S in malaysia. Hahah *pengz*

I love the ice kachang in malacca. The brown sugar (gula me%@# - duno how to spell) is awsome when it mixed so well the ice after eating mouth drooling malacca laksa. **Swee**

**Let Go**

I juz want to concentrate on my stuff and yet I see a lot of things that I dun wish to see that are happening around. I dun like when pple outcast one another and start to have their own individual group (IMTATMM) when they are in a group aiming for the same goal. The whole situation is so loped-sided. I hate it. That's so bitchy!!! Go F#%$^ spider!!!

**Bangkok 2008 Continued**

I can't believe this is happening in Bangkok.

YOU CAN'T FART IN TUK-TUK!!! THIS IS RIDICULOUS. PEOPLE WILL TEND TO GET INDIGESTION...

Took quite a number of pics while taking tuk-tuk (coz boring and nothing to do, oli camera on my hand & decided to act like super full time tourist, busy taking pics)

Nowadays, Tuk-tuk drivers are smart to moonlighting. They juz need you to help to go some gems stones shop so that they can earn their petrol money... Wt....f. So we help and it help when we left Bangkok. Coz everytime take tuk-tuk, the drivers will all say the same thing: " Ok, I take the discounted fare you say but u need to help me to get petrol voucher for me by going this or that gems stones shop to walk for 10- 15 min and I will wait for u."

After shopping @ Bobae mkt, we decided to go pray. Guess wat???!!! Due to my superb intelligence, I told the tuk-tuk to go to the 4 face buddha. He brought to the central world left us there. So I told my friend that the 4 face buddha was nearby and I noe the way. Walk for 20 min, still cannot find the 4 face buddha. Keep telling my friend: " ya it's there, the corner."
Finally decided to call up my pal to check what is the name of the 4 face buddha. IT'S ERAWAN!!! Ya, that's the one. But we lost our way. Wat to do... ask pple on the street how to get there. So Thai pple are friendly, they lead me the way and we found it. Guess Rayn muz be thinking, " u sure u noe the way a not!!! I walk till my legs wan to break liao still haven reached... knn!!!"

Finally, Erawan 4 face buddha, I am here. Pray, repay and wish.....

Got to continued my story later....

**Bangkok 2008**

Yeah!!! Bangkok, here I come again....

Finally can let my mind rest for a few days off work before start running for the next month.

Took the flight super early in the morning. Got to reach airport at 6am.

Din get a good rest the night before, so worried that I might miss the flight. ( zombie faces)

Was too early to check into the hotel. Hence, we decided to shop around. Taking tutu.....

After much hesitation of waiting for Wan Wan in branch, decided to do my blogging....

Finally got back to the hotel (Baiyoke boutique). Nice hotel wiz bright lobby and artistic wallpaper in the toilet. Comfy bed but oli the aircon sucksss... (warm)
Next day, we set off to our shopping paradise....

Pretty, Fresh- looking pictures before we shop

Yeah, since the day I am in bangkok, had tom Yum Goong everyday without fail. Yum! Yum!So Tired after one whole day of shopping @ MBK

Legs so aching and I am starting to feel tired...

Foodie, Foodie, faster come... Me so hungry already :S

Burrrr......ppppp. Cool drink after spicy tom yum goong.... thumbs up.

Got to go home. Me continue my blogging for the thailand another day.